Memory is the diary that we all carry about with us...

Puncak Perdana, every little piece of it...

...They taught me how to imagine, and how to dream.

They gave me wonderful memories, and left footprints on my heart...

It's surprising how much memory is built around things unnoticed at the time...

"For some life lasts a short while, but the memories it holds last forever."

- Laura Swenson

The good old days

Missing all the good old days...

when we were all innocent, pure and white.

Klang, I am missing the old curves and lanes.

Where goes my nostalgic inches...?

p/s klang; a small town where I grew up, the air that I gasp for almost 20 years before shifted to this new town of shah alam.

back to assignments... :(

Ouh no! It's like waking up from a sweet dreams to the real violent hillarious massive reality... Help me please, put me back to the long sleeps... I love it till the end of time. I don't want to face the reality. It hurts me critically. No No No No!!!

:(

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Kepada semua pembaca Malaysia dan Indonesia,
Pertama sekali, untuk apa kita bergaduh? Apa hadiah kepada kemenangan kita? Maruah? Kehebatan?

Kita serumpun, Melayu, Jawa, Bugis atau apa sahaja, kita Asian. Kita manusia yang sama, serupa dan tidak berkuasa apa. Tidakkah kita fikir bahawa kuasa besar di luar sana sedang mentertawakan kita kerana sekecil kita ini pun mahu bergaduh, bermusuh sesama sendiri. Bukan kah kita seharusnya hidup harmoni, toleransi bersama? Menerima baik dan buruk sesama sendiri demi kemajuan bersama? Kita berbalah di pentas media dan internet disini, adalah untuk apa? Membuka pekung di dada kita sendiri? Memapar pada dunia betapa jahilnya kita? Memapar fakta-fakta yang tidak diperakui hanya sekadar untuk menghentam sesama sendiri? Tidak tergelakkah warga dunia yang lain melihat situasi ini. Saya sendiri tergelak dengan beberapa kenyataan disini yang nyata salah dari sudut fakta. Tarikh, situasi dan kenyataan sebenar, semuanya salah. Tidak malukah kita? Seolah-olah urusan rumah tangga suami dan isteri dipekik dan dilolong sampai didengar oleh jiran tetangga?

Malaysian dan Indonesian,
Jika saya mahu jadi seperti salah satu kamu semua, saya boleh balas kritikan anda semua di sini satu demi satu mengikut amarah dan emosi saya sendiri. Rasa patriotik negara sendiri dihina ibarat tiada maruah. Pertama ingin saya menegur, bukanlah Malaysia tidak mahu berperang itu bererti takut. Tetapi mengapa mesti perang? Kita mengutuk kuasa besar AS mengamal perang ke atas negara-negara yang ditindas, mengapa harus kita turut amalkan? Perang perlukan wang, perang perlukan nyawa, perang nyata sekali memberi kesan buruk kepada generasi muda. Itulah rasionalnya mengapa kita tidak perlu berperang. Di Malaysia, di Indonesia, kita sama-sama ada kadar kemiskinan. Mengapa tidak duit berperang itu digunakan untuk membantu yang susah. Mengapa harus membeli bom dan senjata? Bukankah kita khalifah di muka bumi harus menjadi pengaman, bukanlah pencetus kekacauan.

Isu siapa lebih pandai, siapa lebih bodoh? Jika kita berterusan bertelingkah begini, masyarakat dunia semua akan memandang kita SAMA BODOH. Tidak lebih, tidak kurang.

Kepada semua, hentikan semua persengketaan sia-sia ini. Isu curi mencuri, hamba menghamba, siapa kuat, siapa besar, siapa bagus, sedarlah yang kita semua sama manusia. Tidak ada kurang, tidak ada lebih. Asian, tunjukkan masyarakat dunia kita juga maju. Kita juga ada maruah. Fikir-fikirkan anda semua. Terima Kasih, dari Malaysia untuk semua.

# bukan nasionalis, cuma rakyat biasa menuntut harmoni.

Agak termalu kerana seorang rakan dari Australia terbaca comment2 di youtube tentang kutukan-kutukan di laman tersebut tentang Malaysia. Meski saya bukan wakil kerajaan, ambassador atau apa sahaja, tetapi terasa di hati membersih nama negara sendiri apabila diperkotak-katik begini. Namun apa kuasa saya, sekadar mampu berkata di cebisan ruang yang tiada siapa hendak membaca. :(

2.50am

Look at the clock, watch, whatever time machine it is, it is 2.50AM as I am writing this down. Baru balik berjalan2, berpusing2 :P (yearly family programme di mlm raya). Abah baru balik dari Russia ptg td after about 2 weeks he's abroad. So today mama masak for raya nye dishes, yumyum! After maghrib ajak smua gi my grandma's hse kt Klang, my dad kepenatan and suh me and my brothers je go ahead dulu. So my 2 brothers and I pun gi lah, plus nak anta all the lauk pauk to my grandma's hse. Since dah besar2 ni, selalunya 1st raya akan beraya kt umah sendiri je, kt Shah Alam ni then baru lah gi umah grandma kt Klang or balik beraya kt Perak, kampung mama.

So, td lepas anta all the lauk pauk kt umah my grandma, balik and enjoying the clean and clear road of Shah Alam. Gile superb clear, sampai leh baring2 tgh jln upamanya. Leh buat drift2 lg haha! (COOL gile, bak kata dzul bile I msg him bgtau Shah Alam's road is so damn clear)... This is what we experienced every year kt Shah Alam ni. Memang sunyi lah Shah Alam ni bile UiTM tu cuti, tambah2 cuti raya cmni. So reached home and enjoying the kuih raya dpn tv.

Dlm kul 11.30+, mama ajak keluar. Konon evening drive jln2 usha suasana mlm raya hehehe :P So abah drive to Klang, (tanah tumpah darahku :P) Klang town, alamakkkkk!!! Gile sendat dek manusia ber-shopping last minute... Gile sesak kt area town and Pasar Jawa Klang tu. So we make a turn and back to rumah my grandma. Gamble je ni, agak2 dorang sure x tido lg, sbb dah dekat 12++ jugak la. Then tgok2, rumah my grandma masih terang benderang dan riuh rendah. So ape lagi, join the club la. Sesi makan, rasa, komen semua masakan2, and sesi mengenali kuih raya hahaha! Peluk2 balang kuih tu sekali.

Dlm 2+, kitorg gerak balik, my dad saje je nak lalu lg kt kt klang town. It's 2.30 dah and... Klang town mcm baru kul 8mlm! Gila cayalah org bershopping segala x ingat mlm siang dah. Wonder kt Jln TAR sure lg meriah ni. Pusing balik kt Shah Alam, PKNS baru je nak shut down, org2 baru beransur nak balik. And now... I am back at home, writing bout the precious night we had just now :) Ni confirm sok pagi liat2 dodol nak bangun ni. OKlah, wishing all Salam Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin! Kalau semua comment raya dah semakin x best, marilah kita sama2 best2 kan jugak raya ni! :D

*nak biskut cornflakes!!!

*perut pedih dek kuah kacang :P

Salam Lebaran (bak kata my brother, bukan lebaran tp 'LEBARAN' which means melebarkan bdn! haha!!!)

adoiii :P

Salam Aidilfitri

...From A Lover Like Me and Family...

ex lover : the game over story

An article of An ex-lover(s) memories : what to do with them?

Well, on to the topic. What do you do to the memories of your ex-lover(s)? Well, most of us experience break-ups and splits with our past lovers. Break-ups don’t sound like good memories right? Well, things happen. In some cases, it’s just a split with no words. Again, things happen. Of course, when something like that happen to you, the last thing you want to do is going through all the things that remind you of the person, especially when what cause the split is something very hurtful and unacceptable. I’m not going to discuss about it here. Whether it’s infidelity, lack of understanding and other things… breakups do hurt us. The question is, what do you do with the memories of your past lover(s)?

I keep saying this point. Take with you all the good things. Don’t waste any of them! I won’t be writing this article if I don’t know what I’m talking about. I am thankful for my habit of keeping all the things I received from other people, though I wasn’t clear what this habit can give to me back…I just know it can give me back something, someday. No, I don’t need another 10 years to get something back from that habit. Why wait another 10 year, when you have now, right? :)

We grow with time. Each year, we are just wiser. The way we see things will also change. Isn’t it interesting? I mean, don’t you want to see how different you see things, now that you’re wiser? Trust me, you won’t regret it. I conducted my little research on this. The best subject is the memories of this particular special ex-lover of mine. It worked wonders.

All the treasure that has his name on it recalled all the good things. Once again, I was the girl I was a few years ago. Once again, I was years immature. It really brought me back to the past. I never know that going through the stuff of my ex-lover can do so much to me. Not only that I realized how immature I was back then, but I also realize how far mature I am now! *giggles. I experienced the lovestory once again though it was a thing in the past. I smiled, I laughed and I even cried. I have just proven to myself and also to the rest of you that being wiser does let you see things differently. I realized that I didn’t appreciate him the way he deserved it…I realized that he was a much charming person from who I used to see him before. It was just an amazing discovery.

Ok…let’s not get carried away with this hahahahaha!
Let me tell you guys something. Memories of our past lovers are very useful. Trying to experience the “lovestory” once again by going through his stuff recall back all the good things and answer back all the forgotten questions, why this person used to be special to me? What makes him fall for me in the first place? When and where and how did it all start? Then, in the process of doing that, I also did myself a favour. This is because, at the same time, I also learnt and discovered more about myself. I mean, what are the qualities in you that made you special to some people? Don’t you want to know? You guys know what, you must do this in your lifetime! Must! It’s among the most rewarding things to find out all over again how you have touched other people’s lives. And the best people you can learn this from are your ex-lovers. You might forget why some guys were crazy about you in the past until you find something that can remind you all that. Yes, even how good they are, they are in the past, so what?

No, don’t look at it that way. If you want to really experience this life, as long as it’s good, savour it. Sometimes you think you’re just nobody. But these past lovers proved you that you are actually somebody. You’re special enough for them to love you and miss you all the time you guys were apart. This way, it might help you remind yourself once again what a worthy person you are. Our ex-lovers are special because they once saw us more special than others. They saw the qualities in us that others don’t. The memories of your ex-lovers are the best way to learn all over again that your existence in this world made a difference in some of the special people whose life touched by you and the qualities you are blessed with. Nothing is wrong with anything good! I can’t miss the feeling of feeling really blessed and I want to feel millions of feelings like that so I can say thank you Lord, again and again. Anything good comes from Him :)

The memories of our past lovers also help us to improve to be a better person because we might find out that we didn’t treat them good enough back then. You will learn from your mistakes with them and you’ll be a greater lover next time :) So, put the stuff of your ex-lover nicely in a box big enough to hold everything in place…cos that will be among your treasure for the rest of your life. You will need it as you get older. I won’t miss that experience of experiencing the blessing all over again the next time I look at it :) You’ll never regret it :)

NOTE: FROM A BLOGGER, this article is so ME!

p/s have anyone think of... having a PROM, where it is only for ex-esss? Huahuahua! I dunno, most maybe say this is crazy, it will be a big disaster, but come on, take it in a real sweet point of view... isn't it sweet? For the old love sake?

Theme of the night : Old Love Sake!

*i know this is crazy.. i am just sayin it larh...huhu i dunno :P

if we were once lover, live in love each day before, sayin all the love quotes, dedications, sayin whatever love script from all love movies, all lyrics from wateva love songs, why can't we be good to each other for one night after the separation?

a lover like me

*unheal wound that bleeds over and over again*

late night post

What if an ex-lover texted...saying that dia is missing me. (as much as I miss dia so much too...) Asking me whether I miss dia jugak x? Yes, I did said I really do, in a friend to friend way. I know dia wonder why and I said,

..."I wanna let (new lover dia) feel how lovely to be loved by you that i once felt"...

Honestly maybe we are both meant to be just friends and nothing more like lover though I know it was really wonderful before. You are best with the one you are now. Keep the memories and we will be fine. Appreciate the one with you tu and life will treat you good.

You are not replaceable yet bukan sbb saya tunggu awak lar...

tp mungkin sbb...ntah. I love to be stuck long, nak watcamne kan...

Bukan saya x suke sesape, tp yg saya suke x suke saya, cmne? hahaha :P

*kpd sesape yg dpt teka sape org bgelar ex ni, shooooh diam2 je ok.

haha, yelar ex I rasanye jari sebelah tgn pun x sampai setengah. I mean ex yg btul2 ex lover larh,

crush2 x masuk, school lovers x masuk, tu puppy loves! huhu!

p/s Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose bcoz the heart that truly loves never forgets. Though no canvas absorbs colour like memory, someday many years from now you will see me, the same old dull me living on with our memories... family, friends, relatives, who ever you are... you're in! :D

annoyed!

There is a person named a person who is seriously nothing, except a trouble maker that keeps annoying me day and night that starts to break my patience now. I tried best to still smile and say it's ok, it is just another irritating moment, but that person will never stop! Oh no! Can't you realise that you are making others nuts! Come on, you are not a small kid to be told to sit properly or to say what ever only necessary. You are a one grown up person who supposedly knows how to behave.

But see what you have become? Day and then others need to consider lots of things with you. Can't you feel that others are getting lesser comfortable with you? Can't you feel that others are actually getting sick with you? But we are an attached-brained people try not to hurt you and be good. But you?

Hello! Do appreciate others understandings. It is hard to make ourself be an understanding person to understand a person like you! You are completely weird and you will surely have got no idea what others actually thinks about you. Stop your massive dirts and please grow up! Stop the mess that you are trying to do!

*wish I could say all this straight on your face instead of writing here and I am very sure that you will not even gona read, annoying friend!

this and that...

at last, mandi jugak akhirnya kereta ni harini hehe :P

and everyday and then, stuck dlm uitm.. masuk atau keluar. sama sahaja.

as well as pg, ptg, mlm dan bile2 masa (tp paling teruk peak hours lah! fuhhh!) jom buat monorail dlm uitm? boleh larr.. pls pls pls... hehehe :P

lanyard ini nice! (padahal kebosanan dlm class, main2 hp)

last saturday's family raya potrait's pic kt studio taman tun, damansara! nice one!

ni self-cam je kot... with my lil brother!

selamat hari raya!!! hahaha too early yeh? xpe, i wanna be the first! huhuhu :P

...

why do people kill people who killed people to tell people that killing people is wrong???

Final Destination 4!

★★★★/★★★★★
simply the BEST!
3D is advisable for more satisfaction!

p/s bulan puasa, no pop corn ekkk hehe☺

alhamdulillah :P

happy happy happy :P

hope next week nye presentation pun ok cmni jugak.

td tu pun agak ke-speed-up-an,

need to improve more for next week!

ttiba rasa nak study cam burst up gile!

GOOD!

(tp suh bukak buku, malas jugakk)

cuma socio's test yesterday agak menghampakan.

salah sendiri, x study betul2.

xpelah, give myself another chance...

buat assignment dia nanti elok2 and score for final!

pls pls pls syaz :P

(ralat : 1st quest dah silly mistake. KECUALI ok, KECUALI! confident je! hish!)

:: i know that it is myself dat i have to blame for whatever results that i obtain for this semester,

so syaz, becareful!

beware!

self-warning ::

The worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn’t want to be held on to...

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.

till I come to realise that

Relationships are like glass.

Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.

- Shari R. Barr

♥

Anyhow Anyway

Happy 1st September!!!

erk, what is that suppose to mean? ntah?

A lil sakit jiwa td sbb dah masuk pintu gate UiTM baru dpt msg, 'Class tunda ptg at 5'. I know I yg awal sgt, class at 10.30 tp 9.30 dah sampai UiTM tp still feuuhh! So balik rumah and thinking nak habiskan assignments yg melambak-lambak dlm list of 'things to do' tu. So dah buat half way, kepala cam stuck again, again and again. (and now that I am here)

What is wrong with me? This is what we call laziness craziness. Sindrom kemalasan yg tiada ubat. Bukan nak ckp masa dip dulu rajin sgt, but tu dah consider rajin gile dah tu, so sgt2 satisfied! But degree life ni mcm xde kerajinan langsung. Got to do something with this. Been realising about this weeks weeks ago, tp sumpah x nak jugak bergerak2. Nak tunggu nyesal masa bukak web results uitm kerrr!!! (no no no, tanak!) Sumpah admire diri sendiri masa dip dulu. (baguss, anak siapa lar ni.) But NOW?

So what should I do?

I am lost in laziness!

:: konon plan 'traveller trip' tu nak escape! we'll see how it work ok? ::

road trip, backpacking la sgt... hahaha!

p/s : cherating 14 & 15 Aug dat day was a great escape from all this laziness craziness haha! jom g lg jom..!!