Everything Will Be Okay!

I always cry at endings

Thought there was love in everything and everyone

I'm so naive!

V is very very extraordinary!

Before reading the thing I'm gonna write, please watch this video. And if possible, please sing along as well! Because this song really inspire me right now :)

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you can adore

Love is all that I can give to you

Love is more than just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart and please don't break it

Love was made for me and you

I have just finished watching a movie, I Don't Know How She Does It.

And the very next thing I'm gonna do is to read the book,

Because?
I really wanna be that kind of woman, the Kate Reddy (Sarah Jessica Parker) in the movie; I Don't Know How She Does It (2011)!
Really.
Don't ask me why but I really adore this character. Her capabilities to juggle things around, having  a good, great husband and two adorable kids and she loves her job and whatever things she's doing!
I love the way she put those people who talks bad about her or judging her away.
Yeah people like Bunce!
Completely away from her way achieving what she wants.
The way she handle Jack, maintaining her one and only love to Richard.
Yeah I don't know how she does it but I really adore her!

And what do I need now?
A good health.
A good education.
A good career.
And a good husband like RICHARD!
I mean, Greg Kinnear :)
I can't believe this. But how come he look so alike to Jude Law in this film?
His hair maybe?
Or it's only my eyes?
Yes it's only my eyes.
I know.

 

:)

Alhamdulillah and appreciate

Once in a life time, try to be disabled 

then you will appreciate each and every abilities you have. 

Syazwani Hillmy

New Year 1433H

Alhamdulillah, to have the chance to be in this brand new day on 1433H.
This wonderful new year wishes goes to, my mom!



...and not forgetting, my dad too!
I love you both so much! :)
And yeah, don't make life hard on others.

May Allah bless us all.

Please!

Be careful with words that come through your mouth.

Once they are said, they can only be forgiven, not forgotten.

Try to put yourself in my shoes then maybe you will understand.

So please don't be so hard on me.

I'm too fragile to handle such things.

Someone I Failed To Find Yet Still Searching For

This one particular person named Someone.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. Whenever this person around, colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." —Bob Marley

Someone like him; maybe?

Keep smiling!

Everything in life is temporary.
So if things are going good,
enjoy it because it won't last forever.
And if things are going bad,
don't worry because it won't last forever either.

Be positive and believe in magic :)

Mama,

This is a short note. Yes. Very short.
I love you.


Sincerely,
Your Stoned-Head Daughter :P

Me and myself

Sometimes I have had the tears almost drop, but I take deep breath, gather all the strength then only I speak. As for me, I find my strength when I tell myself that I am okay. I want everything back to normal. I need to feel normal and be normal. Sometimes by pretending it's all okay and nothing happen is where I gather my own strength and pretend nothing could ever effect me, smile and be okay for the sake of others (too).

# will be faking smile for the 2 weeks ahead :D

Sometimes, you're left alone

So true!

p/s First time ever solat secara duduk; terasa diri kerdil sgt dgn nikmat Allah SWT :'(

It's okay :)

Sometimes you put people on the top list of your priorities, but when they don't do the same too, it's okay. Just smile and say it's okay :)

Sometimes you really care about others, but when they don't do the same too, it's okay. Just smile and say it's okay :)

It's okay :)

True Fact

Sometimes you're just not so important to people who are important to you.

7th October 2011, KPJ Selangor: First surgery, first general anaesthesia experience, first operation theater, first stitches ever in my life, first time ever been warded. First hospitalization experience ever. Not good. Really.

Worth So Much More After I'm A Goner

So there goes the '4 months'?

Push yourself to the extend of you thought your limits!

I still remember how I was making such noise and really disagree when the IPTAs in Malaysia (UiTM is affected) need to change it's semester schedule. Easy say = reschedule the semester. We are so used to the Dis-May and July-Nov semester schedule for ages. And the sudden change needs the degree students to have extra breaks from mid May - mid September to actually balance the rescheduling. Count that; 4 months, right?

I was so pissed off since it's my final year. I should graduate 3 months earlier (later in 2012) without this rescheduling. But then, who am I to actually disagree. So finally I kept my mouth shut, and accept the fact that... Yeah, 4 months of holidayyy, let's finish study 3 months late :) *smile*

So somehow I went through this 4 months already. Yeah, I did. We all did! What did I do in this 4 months? The most obvious thing is I gained more weight. That's so obvious, can never hide this. Ahh. Ignore that. Somehow I manage to do few things. I went to work. The usual place I always went during my previous semester breaks. It's the UiTM Publication Centre. I don't earn much here in term of $, but it's never all about the money. And I wasn't really given task related to my study areas too. I was doing much of general jobs including clerical jobs. *What? So what did you do? Why do you have to work there?

My answer would be; it's convenient as it's near to my house. And the biggest answer is I'm sticking at the same place for 3 times in a row (May 2010, Nov 2010 & May 2011). *So, what?

So that I gained enough experience based on observation on things I needed to observe. My management lecturer once said that under 3 years of working experience at a certain place does not make you an experienced person because 3 years is not enough for you to really know a company and it's work. *Err what is that you need to observe?

I need to observe things related to working environment. To adapt with the office situation, to get to know with so many people who are from different background. To actually mingle around with people from different social status. So, why is that important?

Because mixing around with people of different traits, age and background from us is a skill. Furthermore I need to know more on UiTM. The departments and how does those department interrelated with each other in operating this one huge university. And somehow, even I wasn't really doing the publication job, I am exposed to the admin and the sales and marketing job. I joined the sales and marketing department and I get to observe more things widely. The process, the problems they face and how they solve the problems. (On their own ways)

For me, opportunity to learn is everywhere. It's all depending on us; how do we take those opportunity in a good way that could benefit us. An opportunist sees opportunity everywhere. Along the way in life, we meet great people who make us smile somehow we also meet people who make us cry. But never too sure to think that the smile is something really good and the cry is bad. Because from that cry, it turn you to someone you never know. Hopefully someone stronger, better and happier. I have always believe that 'Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger." Really!

Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger!

So here I am writing after 2 weeks getting back to the normal life; classes, classes, classes, assignments and lots of assignments! I'm in the 5th semester now, which will be my last lecture semester. I'll be going to internship next semester insyaAllah and will be done with my degree study! I'm pretty excited about it but somehow feeling little bit down facing this semester. Maybe due to the long holiday that needs me to get back to the momentum or maybe due to the tough semester I'm facing now. Yes, this will be the toughest semester ever to face, I have major projects, events and an academic writing (mini thesis) to go through.

Thank god, my French KKB level 2 is finishing pretty soon, and my freelance job (magazine's designing, typesetting, layout making) is coming to it's final level. I will soon get to focus on my 5th semester fully. I am really hoping best for this semester. Well it's a little bit disappointing somehow that I will again not be graduating with that pink ANC's sash. Haha I was hoping for the same thing for diploma; getting DL for every semester, and get to wear that pink ANC's sash, but the 3rd semester results (again) has got me to a 'tengok je orangnye pink sash!'. So same goes to this coming convocation (insyaAllah). I'll be AGAIN 'tengok je orangnye pink sash'!

Haha funny lah syaz, why is that pink sash is so important? Because it's somehow an inner motivation, a gift to myself or somehow a gift to my parents too. I want to make them proud. I know they have been hoping for me to get into some kind of more professional field of study before, but I just can't. So there goes me with my Creative Technology's Diploma cert, and soon, Mass Communication and Media Studies cert. So I thought I should graduate the best in my class, and yet I failed.

But somehow it's okay. Seriously it's really okay. I think I'm worth even more than that 'pink sash'. Somehow in life we needed this 'fall and strive back'. The Malays would say, 'jatuh dan bangun'. Because that's when you gotta handle the worst nightmare ever facing your 'worst self-esteem'. That's when you gotta handle the breath in, and yeah it's okay. I can do this! I faced this thing and it makes me stronger. I do lots of self talking. I persuaded myself, I tried to convince myself that I can do it. And yes, I'm back on the track with even much stronger inner.

Ah, self-talk! It's very important. It's like the food for your inner. It's one of the best way of motivating yourself. Trust me it's hard. Really. It's even harder than convincing your parents that you need a RM100 note for just a pair of socks. Really. It's even harder than convincing your friends to make them borrow you their car. But somehow it's a skill. It's a 'Mind Over Matter' skill. To tell yourself that it's okay. To forgive yourself and giving another chance. To get back on the track and keep going. It's like fighting cancer! It needs you lots lots of inner strength.

What do I do when I need to get back on the track? How do I handle hard times?

1. I get back to my Creator. He knows me best. I'd tell Him all my sorrow and pain.
2. I do light talking to my parents, especially my mom on my future plans. (Because I'm too ego to tell that I'm so down, I wanna cry and I wanna fall apart)! In this case, I see myself to be weaker if I cry so instead, I will do light talking to my mom about how am I going to handle my future. What I wanna be.
3. I sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Yes I sleep a lot when I feel so stress up! *Not good I know, see how much I gained weight when I feel stress? But it helps me soothing the tense. It's too hard to face it awake :P
4. I listen to songs that motivate me! You want the list? Here we go, these are some of them!

One Moment In Time

Hampir Ke Situ
(Sorry can't find any other better video!)

The Climb

#Usually I handle this best, so hoping the same for this time too! :)

Que sera sera

Just now in my French class, my lecturer and some of the other students were discussing about the grammatical things on some words, and suddenly he relates it with the song 'Que Sera Sera' and it really reminds me of the good old days!

Ah, reminiscing my childhood days; my kindergarten teacher played this song a lot (newer version) and ask us to sing along haha! :)

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

And... Tonight's best lesson;
L'amour est aveugle mais le mariage améliore la vue d'oeil.
Love is blind but marriage improves eyesight /
Love is blind but marriage is an eye opener.

Can't Help Falling In Love

funneyyhh haih :P

Trust issues?

"You kinda have trust issues. You really won't trust others, don't you?"

Errrk. Emm I don't trust others easily. Sounds better. Because you risk everything in that one single trust. I'm a risk taker, but a wise one. Enough said. So if I'm not risking my trust to trust you, so maybe you are not worth my trust. Just not worth the time too. Sorry.

But yeah, at the same time I do realise that; The biggest risk one can take is to not take one.

#Somehow I have faith that someday, somehow, something's gonna work right. It will be worth the wait :)

The celebration of all in one

Salam Eid ul-Fitr 1432H / 2011

Maaf Zahir & Batin!

Not forgetting;

Happy 54th Birthday Malaysia!

I'm so proud to be Malaysian :)

Thank you for everything! 

...And oh ya, 31st August 1997 - 2011;

it has been 14 years since you've been gone the late Princess Diana,

the queen of our hearts :'(

Act your age, not your shoe size.

Yes I want many things in life too. 

But I realise I can't have them all. 

So I train myself not to want them when I can't, which is so depressing. 

Ouch! Yes it hurts.

Sometimes I will fight for it but sometimes I just can't, right?

Somehow I think it is better still to either just give in or fight for it than to put the blames on others when I fail to do or get something I want. 

To blamers; So do you think blaming make yourself feel any better? Somehow blamming is just gona put your focus on what you don't want instead of what you want. Blamming does not motivate anyone instead makes people defensive. Act your age, not your shoe size. Be an adult not overgrown children. 

To the person who always be blamed, read this; 

Always To Blame, Always My Fault. Relax and chill. Never let others affect you too much. 

Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. 

(10 Things I Hate About You, 1999)

Loving Beyond Doubt!

Love You Like A Love Song (Covered by Sami & Sasha)

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. 
You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life. Albert Camus

The Ugly Truth

#Le Love

A : You're too good to be single.
B : No, I'm too good to be lied to, cheated on, and played with.

"Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you;
You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." — Bob Marley

Think, Wish, Hope and Pray

It has been ages! Really, it feels like almost decade this place was left neglected. Somehow I have cleaned up everything, change a little here and there to make it look better and brand new (even simple, less mess). This blog almost reach its 4th year and it is still here. I hope I will still keep writing, expressing and sharing. While I was away, there are so many bits and pieces of ideas entered my mind but none was written. Was it due to time or commitment or it was just the plain me who been lazy; you guess it. (You know it's lazy right)

p/s Will update more later on. See, I get lazy again. 

Yes, again. Oh ya, currently I am reading this.

This is the Malay version; you can also get the English version in pink cover :)

And listens to this. A lot. Really lots.

 Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

That's all for now folks. Love.

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true!

Love is not asking something back in return

I am so touched when he said,

"What kind of guy would i be if i walked out when she needed me most?"

Gosh, that's the point. He's still with her despite how she now looks.

What's in looks? As long as it is still the 'you', right?

Love is not asking something back in return.

Not even asking to be love back. *sigh*

We'll see who ends up getting hurt this time!

 

source; Le Love

Perfection in Imperfection

R.I.P to Karen.


The hardest thing I’ve ever done
Is keep believing
There’s someone in this crazy world
For me
The way that people come and go
Thru temporary lives
My chance could come and I might never know

I used to say no promises,
Let’s keep it simple
But freedom only helps you say
Good-bye
It took a while for me to learn
That nothin’ comes for free
The price I’ve paid is high enough for me

I know I need to be in love
I know I’ve wasted too much time
I know I ask perfection of
A quite imperfect world
And fool enough to think that’s
What I’ll find

So here I am with pockets full
Of good intentions
But none of them will comfort me
Tonight
I’m wide awake at four a.m.
Without a friend in sight
Hanging on a hope but I’m alright

*

Because we don't know what our life would be like without it!

Tun Mahathir Musical
220111
Istana Budaya

The tears of a man who strugled to bring his people (Physical and Mind) from 3rd world country into a world class players. Somehow got to face the fact that people cannot change people.

Perjuangan Yang Belum Selesai / The Unfinished Business
Tun Mahathir Mohamad

Sesungguhnya tidak ada yang lebih menyayat hati

Dari melihat bangsaku dijajah
Tidak ada yang lebih menyedihkan
dari membiarkan bangsaku dihina
Air mata tiada ertinya
Sejarah silam tiada maknanya
Sekiranya bangsa tercinta terpinggir
Dipersenda dan dilupakan

Bukan kecil langkah wira bangsa
Para pejuang kemerdekaan
Bagi menegakkan kemuliaan
Dan darjat bangsa
Selangkah bererti mara
Mengharung sejuta dugaan
Biarkan bertatih
asalkan langkah itu yakin dan cermat
bagi memastikan negara
merdeka dan bangsa terpelihara
air mata sengsara
mengiringi setiap langkah bapa-bapa kita

Bukan kecil tugas kita
Meneruskan perjuangan kemerdekaan kita
Kerana rupanya selain memerdekakan,
Mengisi kemerdekaan itu jauh lebih sengsara

Bangsaku bukan kecil hati dan jiwanya
Bukankah sejak zaman berzaman
Mereka menjadi pelaut, pengembara
Malah penakluk terkemuka?
Bukankah mereka sudah mengembangkan sayap
Menjadi pedagang dan peniaga
Selain menjadi ulama dan ilmuwan terbilang?
Bukankah bangsaku pernah mengharung
Samudera menjajah dunia yang tak dikenal
Bukankah mereka pernah menjadi
wira serantau
Yang tidak mengenal erti takut dan kematian?
dimanakah silapnya, hingga bangsa ku berasa begitu kecil dan rendah diri, apakah angkara penjajah, lalu bangsaku mulai melupakan kegemilangan silam dan sejarah gemilang membina empayar

Tugas kita belum selesai rupanya
Bagi memartabat dan memuliakan bangsa
kerana hanya bangsa yang berjaya
akan sentiasa dihormati
Rupanya masih jauh dan berliku jalan kita
Bukan sekadar memerdeka dan mengisinya
tetapi mengangkat darjat dan kemuliaan
buat selama-lamanya
Hari ini, jalan ini pasti semakin berliku
Kerana masa depan belum menjanjikan syurga
Bagi mereka yang lemah dan mudah kecewa

Perjuangan kita belum selesai
Kerana hanya yang cekal dan tabah
Dapat membina mercu tanda
Bangsanya yang berjaya.

Why do we only appreciate something when they're gone?

It is always easy to take things for granted. I think it is our imperfect human nature causes us to forget how fortunate we really are sometimes. Sometimes a slap in the face from friends will help keep us from blowing it, if we are lucky! We like to take things for granted and will not realize how someone or something is important to us until they are gone, forever.

Mahathir Mohamad
The fourth Prime Minister of Malaysia.
Known as the Father of Modernization of Malaysia, who contributed to the stability of Malaysia in all aspects in his 22years of service (1981-2003).

p/s bait-bait skrip yang hebat dari malam tadi, dipetik dari ucapan Dr. Mahathir sewaktu 100 hari memerintah Malaysia. (Lebih kurang begini)

"...Bukan senang nak puaskan hati semua orang. Tetapi sebagai pemimpin, harus adil. Adil bukan bermakna semua harus menerima semuanya sama rata. Tetapi adil bermakna memberi hak kepada yang sepatutnya menerima." - Mahathir Mohamad.

Maka sekiranya PM Najib lelah menjawab pertanyaan konsep 1 Malaysia vs. Hak Melayu & Bumiputera, do quote the speech above. Kata-kata Tun explains a lot!

All I can say is he is a thinker. A great one.

Welcome 2011! Please be good, okay?

Lets help prevent firecracker injuries. For a change, why don't we make a blast of happiness, an explosion of positivity, and a bang of good luck and prosperity. Happy New Year, 2011!
♥