short note, short breath, short break

Life is a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up sometimes and...
most of the time...
The purpose of life is a life of purpose..

:: chill up and still breathing ::

Supposely

Salam!
Good Day!
Hi!

I was informed that our internship will be finalising next week.
So it is going to be 2 weeks earlier than it is suppose.
So.. Good bye, sayonara, tata!

New semester is coming.. humm.. back to that ordinary messy life.
About persuing degree, i have to sit and think again.
Yes, Insyaallah I will persue. But what course? The same old one or?
Haven't decide yet. So ask me later.

Alhmdulillah for the results yesterday.
Thanks mama, thanks abah, thanks brothers, thanks my special study buddy : ateem, friends, mates and lecturers, akak ofis, akak dining, akak koperasi, semua la ye?
Thanks eyes, for the willingness to stay up in the classes.
Thanks ears, for the willingness to listen to the lectures.
Thanks legs, for bringing me to the best place and the right one! (walaupun kdg2 tersasar haha)
Thanks smua lah.. Hahaha.. :P
Am I mumbling now? yes kot.
so better get stop.
yahooo!!! today is friday!
Weekend is yummy! hehe :P

:: life is a journey with 1001 circumtances and consequenses ::

listen up with me

Currently listening to : One Day In Your Life by Michael Jackson

One day in your life
you'll remember a place
Someone's touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around you

One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day

One day in your life
When you find that you're always waiting
For the love we used to share
Just call my name
And I'll be there

You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day

One day in your life
When you find that you're always longing
for the love we used to share
Just call my name
And I'll be there

:: if you have to go, i'll never stop you cause i just know love will lead you back to my heart ::

please remember

when you said it is enough,

i don't think it will be the last.

because deep in i know,

there is still lots to treassure.

the moment we shared

is the best of all..

:: ...remember the hours, we talked about you, we talked about me,

we talked about us... ::

untitle

It has been so long since last I’m being so mellow like hello.
Well, things were just so congested and trying so hard to manage everything with this two poor hand.
The outcomes were not so much as what expected as the inner is calmly trying to absorb though things are rough.
The path is full with obstacles that made me who I am today.
The road were not easy,
The air is hard to breath.
The taste were so bitter.
Come on love,
Look at me.
The one that been hurt so much.
The one that been neglected since last.
The one that loves with no reason and rely on the fate.
The one that has nothing,
But only you.

I wish I could stand up and say,
“hey you!”
and walk off.
But.. I know I can’t.

Funny, unbelievable,
buy yet it's the true.
come on,
wishing that life cud turn 90 degrees ahead.

trying to : love life as what it is..

dying for coming weekend!

hi lovely day!

weekend is just around the corner,
and i just can't wait to get near to it since i been hungered for holidays!
(well, it is just the ordinary weekend wih the additional of haj public holiday after all..)

planning?
nothing specific as being at home without doing anything would be so satisfying to me.
mama and abah will be away,
so hooray!!!
hopping for syamil to get to stay so that we both cud dam dim dum the days all day long!
let's go bro!
hehe..

readers,
pray for my happiness!
pray for my selfseeking!
i'd love to treassure life happily right after,
i'd love to appreciate every moment to the last breath..
'life is too short to waste''

my path of journey

the more we treassure, the more we gain.

it has been 4 weeks since i firstly stepped in to this company (for my internship programme). Well, i learnt things that would never been thought by any schools in this world. this is what we call as school of life. life that taught us without teaching. the more i know, the more i would explore. things never going to be easily gain. the preassure that hurts will define the success that counts. well, i am maybe too young to talk about life. but being someone who were borned as an observer, i tend to observe things naturally intended. unconciousness that comes along the journey though merely differ from the officially words that said. people come and yet they go. people smile and yet they were thinking. life goes as the clock ticks. in this nature of living, i usually hope for the best. putting up targets to achieve and giving up self preassure transperently. i am sure, u guys usually did that too right?

but yet i was thinking again, why do we always hunger for achievements without thinking of the satisfaction factors of living? it is not that i am a type of person who always counts on satisfaction. but again, life is too short to waste it. today will be once. this moment will be once. it never come back no matter what. so, i guess.. i, you, us, we should start to cherish the moments and appreciate every seconds that ticks. no matter how poor the situation would sometimes be, i should never complain. that is what life is all about. having troubles and fade the smile, having happiness that fades the cry. so, lets cherish the life...

thingking of : cherish by kool and the gang!

buziness is craziness

intro : lalalalala =P

humm what a day!
dah lama kan x post anything here.
so here i am.
well, bz with internship prog. (ye ye je bz)
but ye la.. bz la jugak ni namanya hehe.
well, i got to rent a room here kt condo tmn desa. 5 mins to my office (sbb naik U72 yg gile).
kalau cab kejap jer..
well, room ok, rumah ok, hsemates pun ok.
office?
oh panjang ceritanya.

well, on my 1st day i kene post kat MB! (Malaysian Bussiness Magazine)
i was shocked! (gila ke ape nak suh i jd journalist bussiness?)
dah lah x pnah amik bussiness studies, jauh skali la nak write pasal segala stock exchange, gila sgt.
so bila the big boss interview i, i honesty je ckp i xde experience in that area of writing. So i pun transfer la ke magazine iREMAJA.

oklah.. Editor pun best, Kak Emma. (Garanggg but sempoi).
then on my first day i dah kene buat task.
pasal HSM3 dengan about sex. (layan jelah buat)
pastu... 2nd day pun buat task yg amatlah pelbagai, correction, belajar nak masukkan article dlm system..
2 org senior journalist kt situ helpful la jugak.
(kak Siti and Kak Anis)..
So i pun buat lah task untuk bahagian kecantikan dan sana sini.
buat punye buat, Editor panggil. Suh i g event ptg tu.
Berderau la jugak.
KLCC : M.A.C launch product baru, "RED," She Said. Make Up stuff la..
then Editor ckp g ngan dia. OKLAH. tp smpai sana... Wuarrgghh.. Rupenye dia suh g sorang. Nasib baik Ateem dpt task sama utk cover. But she's from Jelita nye Magazine la. So layan jelah..
there u go, ada ramai sgt2.. ternampak Faizal Tahir,teringat plak kat si Apple.haha.. ntah berapa ramai la lagi manusia.. balik have to catch Monorail and rapid U72 again nak balik tmn desa. Wuarrgghh rapid buat hal. Dekat 11 baru smpai rumah. kakak rumah plak sgt lah baik, dah cook for us. So bantai jelah. Thanks kak jun. eheh.. :P

Pastu third day, after enjoying myself kinda much gak kat iREMAJA, and dah selesa buat mcm2 task, i kene panggil ngn editor.
Well, Mr. Charles our big big boss nak i di transferkan ke Anjung Seri sbb Anjung Seri tak cukup kaki dan tangan.. Wuarrhggh... Oklah. then turun lah satu tingkat ke bwh. Jumpe dgn crew anjung. Oklah jugak. Kebetulan diorang dah close dateline utk issue december, so xde apelah yang nak dibuat. Cuma dpt handle press release je buat masa ni. Maybe bila bukak untuk issue January, wud be busy balik. Tp next week ada majlis anugerah kreatif anjung seri, kt saloma bistro. so maybe bz lah pulak kot next week.

well, after all.. despites all the nervousness and kejanggalaness (haha), i rasa ok lah.. enjoy sajalah 2 months of internship ni. apa-apa sajalah labu... keje di magazine mana pun, amik saja lah.huhu :P

tp sbb tukar department, melepas arini nak g event kat zouk and yg paling penting, next monday patutnya i handle event AFGAN kt hotel istana, wargghh sgt sgt suke Afgan! tp nak watcmne.. dah tukar ke anjung. so task tu dah pass kt org lain.. :(

hehe.. tp apa pun, chill saja lah.
chill yo!

Kelantan : Journey To The Root (18,19,20,21 Aug 2008)

Pantai Cahaya Bulan, Kelantan Darul Naim.

at the wau making place, PCB.

the making of wau part 1.

the making of wau part 2.

The 90 % nearly complete wau.

A cup of tea at the road side of Kelantan.


:: Kelantan, 1001 of 1001 ::

my album of photography with my watermark

:: some old collection of memoirs ::

mahu kamu

mahu kamu,
tetapi kamu ada dia.

ku cari cinta lain,
namun tak ku temu.

bila ku lelap,
hanya ada kamu.

bila ku jaga,
hatiku ada kamu.

kamu tetap di hatiku,
namun kamu tak mahu.

:: kamu tahu siapa kamu ::

rindu yang lalu

masuk kini lembaran yang kedua,
sambutan tak seindah mana,
kasih dah berubah hala,
rindu sudah lagi tiada.

tetapi aku masih ada,
meniti kasih yang sama,
merindu hanya pada dia,
mencinta hanya yang sama.

kini dia gembira,
mahu lepas, mahu bebas,
mahu lihat segala yang ada,
aku buat dia rimas.

aku tak mampu kata,
jangan mahupun tidak,
kerana dia kan kata,
aku ini penghalang.

aku juga tak mahu,
jadi pendesak buat tersayang,
tapi ketahuilah sayang,
aku pun punya hati.

namun aku sudah rela,
pijaklah hati ini,
henyaklah jiwa ini,
kerana tanpamu aku kan lebih sengsara.

di mataku hanya ada kamu,
di jiwaku juga hanya kamu,
meski nyawa jadi taruhan,
mencintaimu tetap mesti.

aku cinta kamu.
aku rindu kamu.
mungkin masa takkan berulang,
tetapi kau tetap ku sayang.

If you want me by Marketa Iglova & Glen Hansard (ost once)

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can’t tell dreams from truth
For it’s been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance calls its only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
You know I really try
To be a better one to satisfy you for you’re everything to me
And I do what you ask me
If you let me be free

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

:: from the film, 'once'. best one ::

Aku si pencinta dia

Aku si pencinta murah,
tidak meletakkan harga.

Aku si pencinta bebas,
tidak meletakkan syarat.

Aku si pencinta jumud,
tidak meletakkan jangkaan.

Aku si pencinta dia,
Hanya mahukan dia.

:: DIA, aku mahu dia di sisiku ::

Untuk Dia

Untuk dia,
Aku harus jadi si sabar yang bertahan.

Untuk dia,
Aku harus mengalah dan beralah.

Untuk dia,
Aku harus memahami meskipun keliru.

Untuk dia,
Aku harus senyum meskipun terluka.

Untuk dia,
Aku harus mengerti erti kesakitan.

Tetapi kerana dia,
Aku tahu yang aku ini seorang yang penyabar.

Kerana dia,
Aku tahu aku mampu bertahan.

Kerana dia,
Aku tahu yang aku mampu mencintai sebegini sekali.

Kerana dia,
Aku tahu erti mencintai itu satu kesakitan.

Kerana dia,
Aku tetap bahagia kerana lelah berenang.
Dalam api kesedihan,
Dalam lautan tangisan,
Demi membahagiakan dia.

Namun tak pernah sekali pun,
Aku sesali perasaan aku terhadap dia,
Kerana dia akan tetap menjadi dia,
Dia akan tetap aku sayangi,
Meski dia menghunus seribu pedang,
Menusuk hati, menembus jantung.
Kerana hati ini akan terus mencintai dan menyayangi hanya dia.

:: Dia, cubalah lagi kau henyakkan hati ini,
cubalah lagi kau pijakkan perasaan ini,
cubalah lagi kau hunus jiwa ini.
Aku pasti sampai bila pun,
kau takkan mampu,
menanam benci aku terhadapmu.
Malah kau semakin menyemai cinta aku kepadamu ::

+ malang bagimu menjumpai aku, si pencinta tegar +

When They Translate It to Our Version

back then:
Winter Sonata - hazami
full house - izwan pilus
huang hun - farish
(few more I guess, but can't remember)

latest that i heard?
MY FAVOURITE
'TONG HUA'
by Guang Liang
into
Aliff Aziz version '
'cinta arjuna'

It is not that i am being discourage to the local industry,
but,
why can't we come out with our best delivery
rather than this type of work.
In addition, I am kinda disappointed
with the lyrics of our version.
That song even have the english version,
but it so close to the chinese meanings.
But this??

P.S I Love You

Just another piece of my all time favourite.
The original version of The Letter (Thailand Version).
From the novel from Cecelia Ahern.
The one that made me cried a river.
And I simply love it.

+ p.s I Love You +

'Biarlah si Luncai terjun dengan labunya'

Biarkan.
Lihatkan.
Renungkan.
Diamkan.
Hindarkan.
Anggap sahaja dia tidak wujud.
Atau berbahagia sahaja selagi bernafas.
Ah!
Biarlah si Lucai terjun dengan labunya.
Bila si Luncai lemas, perlukah ku bantu?
Tetapi,
Aku pun dah cukup lemas.
Nafasku berbaki untuk esok.
Cukupkah hingga lusa?
Kita nantikan.

+ Jangan membenci, nanti dia mendekati.
Tak perlu juga menyayangi, nanti dia kecewakan+

mencari dia

Mencari dia kan ku melaluiNYA,
Menyayanginya kan ku dahulukan DIA,
Mengasihinya biar ke jalan DIA,
Merinduinya kan ku luahkan padaNYA.

Mencari dia bagai mencari sebutir gula di hamparan garam,
Mencari dia bagai memilih permata di hempasan kaca,
Mencari dia bagai menyusur pesisir pantai untuk sebutir mutiara.

Andai aku tersalah pilih,
Kan kurasakan kemasinan garam yang kusangkakan gula.

Andai aku tersalah ambil,
Akan ku tertusuk kaca yang kusangkakan permata.

Andai ku silap pilihan,
Kan ku tertipu dek sinaran pepasir yang kusangkakan mutiara.

Pencarian ini terlalu panjang,
Hingga puas ku jelajahi rimbunan ranjau.
Penantian ini terlalu lama,
Hingga musim pun berubah warna.

Andai tiba saatnya kita bersatu,
Biar sehati, biar sejiwa,
Biar sebati, jangan kecewa.

Andai saat itu temukan kita,
Ku mahu kau bersedia,
Menerima cinta si hina,
Yang tiada istimewanya.

Namun buat saat ini,
Biar saja kita merasa,
Nikmat kasih kala berjauh,
Nikmat sayang di ketika ini,
Agar nanti,
Nikmat rindu saat bersua,
Menjadi sulaman cinta yang kita bina.

Hiaskan dirimu untuk pertemuan itu,
Dengan titisan iman dan percikan taqwa.
Kerana aku juga akan bersiap,
Untuk memikul maruahmu dibahuku.

Berkat doaku setiap hari,
"satukan hati kami,
seperti kau satukan
hati Adam dengan Hawa,
hati Yusuf dengan Zulaikha,
dan
hati Muhammad s.a.w dengan Siti Khadijah".

erase the stain and let's begin

"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser" -John Gardner

John Gardner said that, but for me the eraser is always there.
Only depending on us to erase it or not.
Erase it ease out of our mind or to let the stain stay.
But some mistakes are too beautiful to erase.
So let it be there.
As a reminder for us, not to repeat the same mistakes.

too many road was left not taken

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

Robert Frost

+ I wonder where I could ever be now if I were not to choose this road at the last junction.
I guess I've taken the road that less traveled,
Though I've got hurt by the torn,
and fell to the unwelcome river,
yet it is still a satisfaction.
To get to travel to the path on our own way,
blazing my own trail,
and not going to the crowd as the path here is much clearer. +

the more i read, the more i messed

Recently, I open up and read again about Diana and the theories on her from the sources that I have, from the articles and books. And I still played around with same lame theories and factors. I simply take a piece of paper to do some notes and findings. Perhaps it is a new theory, but yet things were just like cycling a circle that came back to the same point of the drawings.

Well, based on the psychology theories, something like behaviorism, humanistic and human interactions from the most basic point of human acts and reacts, I am still with the same main theory that I found years ago. Well, maybe I should put a comma for this findings and come back later when I am ready to dig again.

For just this moment of truth, I guess I should focus on the appreciation aspect of the artistic value. It will be much better and satisfying for a soul that are unstoppable from finding like me. Searching sometimes feels good if you found, but would be bad if keep on loosing. Get the route and start to treasure.

CINTA

"Andai kata cinta itu sebuah pengorbanan, mengapa pengorbanan itu bukan nokhtah sebuah cinta? Andai kata derita itu harga sebuah cinta, mengapa cinta itu semakin sukar dimiliki? Cinta seumpama kota kristal indah di penglihatan derita di perasaan." -CINTA

Letting You Go

We used to be really close friends
But we both wanted something more
But now that I think about
We shouldn't never opened that door

I never hear your ring tone
Because you never ever call
I should've never let this happen
For you, I shouldn't have let myself fall

I really miss your voice
And the way you made my day
I miss how you made me smile
But now that's all faded away

You've found somebody else
And you've let me go
Now that I can't have you
My feelings really show

I miss our late night talks
And your comforting voice
But I have to let you go
I have no choice

You have somebody new
And I hope you're satisfied
My feelings for you I have to let go
I have to leave us behind

There's a pain in my chest
That you'll never know
And even though it hurts
I have to let you go

I have to let you go..
I have to find myself again
I wish that i could just erase this love i have for you..
I loved you.. and yes i still do love you..
And now i have to try and move on..
I guess its time to let go..
So farewell my love..
Let us just be friends!

+though i used to say, i am going for all or nothing,
but here i chose to at least some then nothing+

Musykil Ayat-Ayat Cinta

Novel vs Filem?
lain benar.

Hukum agama?
Lebih memusykilkan.

Contoh?
Hukum berkahwin sewaktu Maria dalam koma.

Contoh?
Memakai purdah atau hijab semasa bersembahyang.
(Bagaimana sujudnya?)

Contoh?
Memberi dan menjawab salam si kafir.

Mengapa?
Setahu saya, perkara di atas melanggar enakmen dalam Islam.
Tidak saya pasti.
Saya juga tidak sufi dalam bidang ini,
namun sedikit pengetahuan buat bekalan.

Alasan?
Mungkin mazhab kita berbeza
(di Malaysia, kita pengikut mazhab Syafie)

Sudut yang positif?
Hanya segelintir Islam sahaja yang ekstremis.
Islam itu bukan terorist.
Islam itu tidak mengajar tentang keganasan.
Islam itu penuh belas.
Islam itu menyuruh ke arah kasih sayang.

Simpulnya?
Take from the bright side.



:: Hitung dengan hati, kira dengan jari, fikirkan ::

Jakarta end may & june 2008

Glad that I am back to this country, Indonesia again. But do not take me wrong. I am happy to be back because of the love for me towards this country doesn't mean that I am our Malaysia national betrayer, but I love this country because no matter what, either we realize or not, most of us (i am talking about malays) are from Indonesia. Doesn't matter you are Bugis, Jawa or which ever part of it.

One thing that I loves about this country is (looking at the bright side) the self esteem that they have on their very own living and life style. Their culture, the artistic value that they have and the originality that they preserved. That's the value that I love.

Remembering on a film that I watched 'Denias, Senandung Di Atas Awan' urges myself to get to know more about this peoples. They are called the Papua people of Indonesia. I got a chance to talk to a few people of Papua, ask them about their culture and living. And most of all, got to see the Chenderawasih Bird. In addition, I even got to enter the perkampungan of Papua, just like the one in the film. Papua peoples is very interesting! Papua Indonesia also known as the Irian Jaya or West Papua.

at the soekarno hatta airport!
(much better than polonia airport for sure)

(princess diana on her visit to TMII)
I was so shocked and quickly snap this picture.. princess of my heart =)

the examples of the Papua's Village.
(Just like the one in the film)

Maceett!

Bulatan Selamat Datang
in front of Ritz Carlton -Own by father of The late Dodi Al-Fayed.

:: I am sure that I'll come back someday ::

after AAC

I suddenly search on hijab

I suddenly download few collections of
nasyid's songs..

I suddenly changed.

I felt really near to my creator.

I suddenly starts to think and think and think..

About this life, love and future.

About myself and others.

About myself and my creators.

Though this film has a lot to be discuss on,
especially on the religion and humanism or sociality concept.

But I take it in the most simplest concept.

The concept that I feel near to me.

The concept that I want to understand and discover.


+ Dia itu dekat, lebih dekat dari isi dengan kuku,
lebih dekat dari darah dengan salurnya,
lebih dekat dari jantung dengan pembuluhnya. +

ayat-ayat cinta : i'm craving for it now!

Ayat-Ayat Cinta Trailer

Ayat-Ayat Cinta MV


why and why and why??

I like this movie?
yes

why?
i dunno, i simply like it.

why?
because of the style maybe.

why?
because it is different.

why?
i feel attached to my creator.

how many time did u watch?
twice

how many time do u wish?
20x.



+ i love what i love and love don't need a reason +

when we are born to write

Who is a writer?
What is a job of a writer?
What does the implication of what the writer writes?
Is everyone is a writer?

Well.. we are a writer since we are 3 or 4.
We starts with scribbles and lines,
then we continue to join the lines to become an image,
an image that reflects our brain works.
Then we will start to draw the most effected images,
to deliver our emotions and inner side.

We never know that our tries makes parents proud of,
They later teaches us to hold the pencil right,
To write alphabets that we never know would be so important later on,
From A - Z,
We have to write it right.
It has names and way of writing it.

Papers by papers,
Pencils by pencils,
Blunt it, sharp it.
Then we are later introduced to an object,
white little cube called eraser.
Superb, it could correct each mistakes.

Later on we starts to write,
and write and write.
From A it becomes apple,
from B it can be ball,
and from C it could be Cat.

From alphabets to numbers,
From phrase to a sentence.
From a sentence to paragraph.
From paragraph to an essay.

We starts to know what is a poem is,
What is essays,
What is news,
and later on we moved to they way of writing that we likes.

Some loves factual writing,
Some loves news writing,
Some loves biography writing,
Some loves creative writing.

No matter what writing it is,
It uses ABC's,
It uses words that makes sentences.
It make sense to readers.

It take hours to write,
Can even be weeks to months,
and even years to complete a writing.

For me,
Everyone is a writer,
Everyone writes everyday,
Everyone has things to write.

To deliver the inner emotions and feelings,
To shout out loud without screaming,
To tell without talking,
To persuade without begging,
To question without asking.

Those are the power of writing,
Writing could change one's perception,
Writing could change a person's decision,
Writing could change the world.


#If you're a singer you lose your voice. A baseball player loses his arm. A writer gets more knowledge, and if he's good, the older he gets, the better he writes. -Mickey Spillane-


-syaz'08-

i love movies

:: I am so in love with movies ::

my genre?
romantic comedy

serious movies?
only for my studies

three words would you describe your movie type?
satisfying + memorable + educate

best evergreen movies?
+ step mom
+ the letter
+ the story of us

satisfaction factor in movies?
+ makes me laugh, cry or happy
+ ends satisfyingly

does the actors plays important role for you?
yes! we watch their actings that brought us to the stories

best place for movies?
+ on my bed in my room
+ empty / less people in cinema

prefer night movies or day?
both will be fine

will you date in the movies?
yes, it always be my first choice

why?
privacy and we do not need to walk here and there ~messy

you cry watching sad movies?
always do even i'll cry a river

Tong Hua (Fairy tale) my 2005 fav song!

Found this on youtube and I feel great to share the fantastic play of this pianist!

the quiz said....

Syaz, you follow your heart when it comes to friends and family!

You just can't help it. In your world, friends and family come first. You know that love is what makes the world go 'round. So whether you're helping loved ones through a tough time, or just enjoying great times together, you make an effort to strengthen those ties that bind.

You, more than others, thrive when you know your safety net is near. And knowing there are those to catch you when you fall, or celebrate with you when you succeed, gives you the confidence to get out there and be the person you want to be. So go ahead and take those leaps of faith! Especially when it comes to love.

So in LOVE with : Attention Please

Thanks to my brother who introduced me to this world of yummy series. =)


1. Attention Please Series 11 episodes. (2006)
2. Attention Please Special 1 - Hawaii. (2007)
3. Attention Please Special 2 - Sydney. (2008)

the old man in my heart

That morning was just a nightmare,
When he was chosen to leave the world.

I was too young to understand,
but i remember almost everything.

The old man that I know,
is not nobody,
The old man that I know,
never died in me,
The old man that I know,
never fade in memory,
The old man that I know,
why should you go that early?

The picture of him is colorful in me,
The moment with him is moving with me,
The talks with him surrounds me,
The happiness with him remains in me.

I would never forget,
the care you showed,
the tenderness you gave,
the happiness you shared,
the love you showered,
the understanding you provide,
the you that i know.

You are the man that shines my childhood life,
You are the man who taught me about life,
You are the man who always saved me,
You are the man who always smiled to me,
no matter how bad i have done,
no matter what wrong i did,
you will never scold me,
but u talk to me,
like a man to a human,
with dignity and respect.

I love you too much, man.
I missed you too much, man.
I needed you so badly,
I want you to be with me,
Attend my graduation,
happy on my wedding,
accompany me on my birth giving,
but,
I know you have to go.
I have to let you go.

Eight years had passed,
but never in any minute of my heart doesn't says your name.
Eight years had passed,
never my love would fade for you.
Eight years had passed,
I will be good for you,
I will always pray for you,
I will always have you in me,
you are the man, atok.
My very first lost.
Till the very last second,
you still taught me,
the sense of love,
the feelings of sadness,
the terribly lost.

You taught me that life is too short to hurt,
and too beautiful to fill with hates.
You taught me the sense of appreciation.

In the memory of my late grandfather,
my childhood super hero.
15 feb 2000 is still fresh in my memory.
(the day that i have to let you go)
syaz'08

the past and the future

When I sit and doing nothing,
I roll the memories that had passed,
and I try to remember.
The picture of moment that I went through,
wasn't that easy,
but not too hard back then.

People I know, people I love,
People I left, People I hate,
People and person who make me who i am today,
Environment and surrounding who made me.
The season that passed,
through the time that ticks.

I tried to discover,
to the very earliest moment,
till now that I became.
Life is worth, but to worst,
I did go on till now I am standing,
right in front of the mirror,
looking deep in me.

Still I am the one before?
Still I have the precious life?
Still I am standing here,
after all that I gone through.

There's a few that I do not want to remember,
but yet those are the one remain in my memory.
Some are bad, but most are great.
The journey to grow,
The journey of discover,
The journey that taught,
The journey that hurt,
The journey that brought me here.

Here I landed,
to a piece of another chapter,
and there's more to treasure,
and I would love to discover with smile upon the journey.
May life be kind to me,
and may this journey leads to the happily ever after ending,
as what I remembered in all my fairy tales.

syaz'08

One Moment In Time

Each day I live
I want to be a day to give the best of me
I'm only one, but not alone
My finest day is yet unknown
I broke my heart for every gain
To taste the sweet, I faced the pain
I rise and fall,
Yet through it all this much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all, no time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel, I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams
Are a heart beat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be, I will be, I will be free

I will be, I will be free

One Moment In Time
By : Whitney Houston
+reminds me of our MGS CHOIR team 2002+

fact

To be with you is to get hurt
But I rather get hurt than living without you.

You

How can I pretend the feelings in my heart
How can I walk away from someone I love
And treasure the time just as a friend
Believing that we are just not more than a friend

While the eternal part of me
Still craving for you
While the heart in me
Is still waiting for you

How can I just forget
The love we shared
The laughter we had
The moment we hugged
and the precious you that I had

I want to be with you
As forever it takes
As hard the journey
As my love is just for you

But I know you have to go
And I have life to treasure
But the love is always within me
Between the memory that left

May your life is easy
May your happiness is promised
May your secure is guarded
May life be gentle to you

So that you would never been hurt
Like what I am now
And may the memory remains in you
As I am still loving you.

syaz'08

Recipe of Life

Life is about the happiness
that we taste
along the way
that we travel.

Life is about the sweetness
of making mistakes
that we can correct.

Life is about the sourness
of relationship
that we can taste.

Life is about the bitterness
of separation
that taught us
the sweetness of relationship.

Life is all about the ingredient
we shared
to taste the recipe of life
and the kindness of God.

Life should be appreciated
no matter the sweet, sour or bitter.

syaz'08

Mom

Mom,
We have the different way of thinking.
We have the unusual perception in everything.
But mostly,
We have the love that we are sharing.

Mom,
When the days are bad,
I return to you.
When the days are bright,
I will be away again.
But mostly,
I am with you no matter what.

Mom,
When I was a little girl,
I didn't get almost what I wanted.
But it is not because you didn't provide,
But I asked for more
While you are trying to provide me with all I needed.

Mom,
When we had the fight,
I will be upset.
You will be too.
But I can't wait for tomorrow
to ask the forgiveness from you.
Because I rather say I am wrong,
then letting the fight to move on.

Mom,
I am liquid in the water.
I am attached,
but could not say the words.
The words that I always wanted to say.
The words that would always be yours.

Mom,
I love you no matter what.
Mom,
It is wonderful to be together,
no matter in the bright beautiful day,
or bad rainy day.
Because you are my mom,
my endless love.


syaz'08

When I Hate Being Me

When I tried best to achieve,
I failed.

When I don't want to hurt,
I simply forget.

When I love too much,
I can't confront.

When I expect for good,
I turn it bad.

When I sacrifice,
I didn't make it worth.

When I loose the way,
That is when i hate being me.


syaz'08

recently on diana

I just watched The Queen : A piece of work on Diana's death situation back in 1997.

so they said

"the hottest love has the coldest end" - Socrates

"life is what happens while you are busy making other plans" - john lennon

"your best teacher is your last mistake" - ralph nader

Sometimes

sometimes when we love too much,
things would not be like what we wanted.

but when we hated so much,
things will end up closely related.

sometimes when we hope for the very best,
obstacles will come right on the path way.

but when we are ready to fight,
it goes well with the flow.

sometimes when we try too hard,
we will mess the things.

but when we lay back,
it seems like we do not care.

after all i guess,
sometimes we should be what we want to be,
not what others wants us to be.


syaz'08

DIANA SPENCER

Diana lives in my heart

Diana Spenser, the Queen of people's heart that I never had a chance to know as I was only 9 when she was taken. I wish I was born ealier than that so that I would get a chance to see her alive with the gratitude of understanding the world.

I suddenly got the interest to know about her after 10 years of her death. But yet, I still remember how I feel; the deeply lost when she was announced to be dead on the day of Malaysia's Independence Day. Though I was only 9 that time, and I have completely no idea on who she is but when people address her as Princess, than only I know that she is a Princess.

But with that innocent and less knowledge about anything, I was so mesmerized when I saw the pictures of her. I observed every each of the pictures of her for not less than a minute. With no specific reason, I wonder who she is.

From deep in my heart, I was so interested to know about her. Yes, she is a princess. With that innocent, kind and humble look, she strikes my heart through only her pictures. There is some undescriable feelings that I feels inside. Real deep inside. But I keep it just to myself.

Till now, I just want to reveal my feelings that I do not know how to name it. I wish you readers can describe for me what my feelings are now towards this golden creation of God. She touches my heart and it's melting.

Basicly, I am more or less do not have any relations with her; we are in the different environment and living places, different race and religion. But Diana seems to be very someone deep inside me. Don't ever ask me why because I do not have the answer.

At the age of late 19, (the age that Diana got Married to the Royal Highness Prince Charles, Prince of Whales), I suddenly got the tap deep in my heart. I simply do a simple researches on Diana's life and death. Then till now, Diana remains living in my heart like how she does to millions of people in the world.

the heart that touched,
Syaz '08

LADY Di

In Memory of a Princess

We watched you from afar
A shy young girl of twenty
Walk down the aisle to your Prince
Every little girl's fairy tale dream come true.

Your life was far from perfect
Even though we all dreamed it would be
We watched you break out of your shell
And take a stand for what you believed in.
You were kind and compassionate
With a wonderful heart made of gold
Your work on earth is done now
But will never be forgotten.
May we reach deep within our own hearts
And continue in your footsteps
To love and help all humanity
Our special Angel from above.

© August 31, 1997 by Sheri

Tribute to the princess of my heart, LADY Di

Elton John

Goodbye England's Rose

Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart



You called out to our country
And you whispered to those in pain
Now you belong to heaven
And the stars spell out your name


And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never fading with the sunset when the rain set in
And your footsteps will always fall here
Along England's greenest hills
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend ever will



Loveliness we've lost
These empty days without your smile
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child

And even though we try
The truth brings us to tears
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years



Goodbye England's rose
May you ever grow in our hearts
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart


Goodbye England's rose
From a country lost without your soul
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know

+since last i wrote+

bila agaknya last menulis?
dah lame agaknya.
tak ada cerita,
tak ada berita,
dan mungkin sedang menderita.

-syaz-