I am what I am

I will never be, I will never be tall, no
And I will never be, never ever be sure of it all
Oh, why is the world so cruel to me
When all, all I ever want to be is anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not
I'm not

I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality, oh

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not

Yeah, gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Oh, anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not

Yeah, gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not

:: love being the bored, dull, old me ::

propose me, ryan reynolds!

Oh Man! It's Sandra Bullock and the hotty Ryan Reynolds!

I really wanna watch this, pls... :)

Watched the trailer and it seems to be really fun, sweet and cute!

Come on, this is my genre!

Goodbye Marks & Spenser, Welcome Dorothy Perkins!!!

Wahaha, again changed my mind!

Been planning to buy another piece of jeans at Marks & Spenser as I enjoyed so very much the piece that I bought months ago,

but since Dorothy Perkins also having such crazy sale, so stop and grab 2pcs!

Great, better and much stylish than the one from Marks & Spenser...

Thanks to my mom who influenced me to grab the one in DP than the one in M&S!

Yg penting, got the skinny leg one!

*hope i will look ok with this.. haha, who cares lah nampak camne pun!*

happy happy happy

*As I am so very happy with the perfomance of my crocs malindi that I am having now, I am looking foward to grab crocs hanalei! But since it will cost me a lot, maybe I should make it in the next target list as I will drive myself crazy with all this non-stop self-shopping mania!*

crocs hanalei, can't take my eyes of u!

GOAL 3? This Is Unacceptable!

Can someone please explain to me, is this the biggest, largest rubbish ever made in the history of film making? What happened mr.producer, mr.director, mr. scriptwriter? What happen? Any reason for this? Is it that all of u are actually suffering from some short term memory lost that u guys cant even remember the story line of the movies that been done before? This is suppose to be a continuation story line isn't it? Or whatever non-linear basis u guys are practising, but at least it shud make sense! But what happened to Goal 3? I have been waiting for like 2 years for it to release it 3rd part, but? I end up not watching it, instead... I was playing with the FWD button and rewind it again, again and again to see whether I actually have grab the wrong movie???

Where is Roz? What happen? She is pregnant isn't she? That is what we audience need to know!

Where is Gavin Harris?

Where is everybody?

And who the hell is those new characthers that I don't see any important they should actually appear out of no where?

Where is Glen Floy?

Munez family? The mom, brothers, grandma?

Oh No! This is so totally unacceptable!

Disaster!

Goal! and Goal II is the best of all.. I am just goin to enjoy this two and about to make myself believe that the ending is in the making or what so ever it is.

:: very dissapointing ::
hopping that this is just a technique or somewhat marketing strategy to make all of us waiting till death for the ending!

assignments?

uitm cuti, assigments pun bercuti...

need to start my engine, warm up and speed fast to get few things settle before this week ends!

malasnyer... this is the biggest probbies actually! kemalasan! hahaha.. fight it, fight it!

early morning post

The dungeon will not release,

The leg that must run,

Or will be trap forever in the castle love of darkness.

If the dance match the rhythm,

Sway more and live in the happiness of flower blossom blooms in hearts.

If I were to meet love,

I will never choose seasonal love,

though summer could hit the heat,

though winter could freeze the breeze,

I wish I could just be daily ordinary endless love...

by : a lover like me, 9am 270709

craziness of 'love to be loved by you'

I am getting much crazier right after watching this video... This video been captured years b4 Marc & Sarah get divorce ofcoz. They were one of sweetest couple of husband and wife b4. I didnt know that Sarah Connor is former wife of Marc coz i've been listening to Sarah's song too, 'just one last dance'.. (agak katak di bwh temperung rupenye i ni) When this 2 songs were hit, they were so deeply in love and both sings for each other and act in each other's music video. In this video, they were on the shooting of 'love to be loved by you' music video, when they have to act like a couple on a wedding day.

And on that shooting session, Marc play the piano, which is the props and dedicate the song specially for his wife while Sarah is holding their child.. It is so sweet, ppl, guests and all crews were rolled with tears including Sarah too. And I guess, Marc is playing a lil fast since he cant wait to jump and get to his wife so much! They were so very sweet and the whole world were so shocked when they got a divorce years after that. When I was browsing bout them, ppl are actually praying for them to get together back! Wow, I simply wonder how can couple like this, so very in love and all of sudden get into divorce. Just like how Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman go tru. Whole world were so shock! Maybe it's true that a quotation from i forget who once mentioned that, the hottest love has the coldest ending! Is it really true? fuhh.. Watch this ppl! And again i am asking myself, what is LOVE actually really is...

For Marc Terenzi and Sarah Connor, what ever reason of the divorce is, yet u both hv been so much in love after all.. it mus have been a precious moment after all.. worth and valuable! if u guys reader care to check, find a song by Sarah Connor too, just one last dance! damn great one.. especially with marc's voice towards the end of the song.. great!

oh no! Marc cant stop looking at Sarah when he was playing, and huh... what else to say??? love is powerful, but isn't Dia is the Almighty and Greatest one after all..

(sorry that i am this type of very mellow person! hahakks always dreaming that i cud hv that such of love like those in the movies, the romeo and juliet everlasting love, the piano dedication just like this, or the biggest sacrifice ever like any other crying love movies.. huh stop dreaming syaz! love is love and life is life, be a lil bit grow up to differenciate that ok!)

*tengok cermin skit! hahakks*

another lost, wahai 26 julai 2009

Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un

and condolence to family of Shahrul Iman (Yo),

my batch mate.

I was so very shocked with the news that i received after maghrib.

he passed away in an accident today.

though he wasnt one of my close friends,

but still i can feel the lost.

one of our batch mate is not going to attend the convocation ceremony :(

al-fatihah

yasmin : too many things, too little time

KUALA LUMPUR, Sat: Renowned film and advertising director Yasmin Ahmad died here at about 11.25 pm tonight. Her death was confirmed by Media Prime Group Chief Operations Officer Datuk Seri Ahmad Farid Ridzuan, who was at the Damansara Specialists Hospital, when contacted by Bernama. Yasmin, 51, collapsed while presenting a working paper at Sri Pentas, the headquarters of the private television station TV3 on Thursday and was rushed to the Damnsara Spe cialists Hospital. She was reported to have suffered a stroke and brain haemorrhage.

- NST online -

I browsed my photo albums and there you go, I still can remember being in the same hall as she talks about her view and ideologies on film scenario in Malaysia. She shared her opinions and thoughts with all of us, the Creative Technology students of UiTM.

(I was a former student of TEKA, UiTM)

Never thought that she will be that very down to earth and such a simple person with smiles...

:: al-fatihah ::

12032008

Pancha Delima, UiTM Puncak Perdana

(Hassan Mutalib & Yasmin Ahmad)

as requested by a friend, a big fan of the late yasmin, he said :

khalid : 'there will be no more static shot in the movie!'

it's CONFIRMED!

RECEIVED THE NEWS LATE NOON,

H1N1 in UiTM Shah Alam gives me OFF till 2nd August 2009!

feel sorry to the one that got infected,

yet a lil happy for the holiday!

ouh NO! can't believe i am being so cruel!

YUKKS ME!

massive H1N1 in UiTM SHAH ALAM

Waiting for the confirmation of UiTM SHAH ALAM, the next H1N1 case?

rumours has spread all away,

yet sumone,

pls do the talking and confirm this matter pls???

and 10 days of holidays... :P

(selamat assignment photo com)

masscom tutup jom... :P

pg td pak guard smua pakai mask, scarrrrrryyyy tol!

can i believe this?

July 24, 2009 • 12:54 pm
H1N1 – UiTM Shah Alam closed for a week.
UiTM is closing starting next week, following of a numbers of students ( the sum which is yet to be confirmed sooner later ) have been infected with H1N1.
This is an official statement released by the lecturers. News regarding these are awaiting.
Regards.

or this?

lifegotstory
live and learn
Friday, July 24, 2009

UITM SHAH ALAM TUTUP SEMINGGUSEBAB H1N1
Friday, July 24, 2009 oLeH jAri-jEmaRi LiLacFlA
Gladly announce that UiTM shah alam is now closed for week until 2 August 2009.All students are encourage to went back home/ stay at relatives house at this moment.If anybody present with High Fever >38 degree, flu, sore throat, cough, fatigue and so on please consult Pusat Kesihatan or any hospital nearby.

H.E.P or ADMIN pls???

craziness of moulin rouge is back!

"...the greatest thing you ever learn is just to love and be loved in return..."- Moulin Rouge, 2001

It's really weird that I am re-watching this movie after the nearly 3 years of my first watch.

And I am starting to extract the piece in my very own personal way.

It's a very fun, colourful love story with the most hurting ending.

It's too hurting!

Somehow, this is one of NK best work ever. Same goes to Baz Lurhman and not forgetting Ewan.

But I guess, NK has given the best of her in every seconds of this film.

She acted so very well, sings well and dance great!

Good JOB NK!

After almost 9 years since the movie is been produced,

I still can watch it like twice a day?

Somehow, Baz Lurhman is really good in being choosy and particular.

Each and every angle of his work is detail and much near to perfect!

Perfecto!

I come up with this,

maybe some or many wud not agree, but I want it to be this way...

"To get through hurting moments is just to get hurt more and more,

because do you know what is the most hurting after all?

it is.. when we try to heal it!

when you are sad, many said never listen to sad songs,

but... i choose to!

never watch sad movies,

but i choose to!

because it is just like...

when u are having muscular pain,

usually after some physical activities

you might suffer to move,

so

never try to pamper it

instead,

hurt it more..

i mean.... just try to walk, jump or run like usual,

it'll heal by itself

if you pamper the pain,

thinking it's the best way to heal it

no! it wont and never work that way!

FACE IT AND FIGHT IT!" - syaz

Next movie : The Terminal by Steven Spielberg, (Tom Hanks & Catherine Zeta Jones)

rewatching ONCE for the 3rd time

click here or at the picture to enlarge


☺sweet memory that will only come once, but last forever☺

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can't tell dreams from truth
for it's been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore

When I get really lonely
and the distance causes our silence
I think of you smiling
with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you’d believe me
when others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
when you know I really try
to be a better one to satisfy you
For your everything to me
and I’ll do what you ask me
if you’ll let me be, free

If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me

♥

understanding

sad painting by Asbjorn Lonvig

'sad days indeed'

People say you can't
Die from a broken heart
I knew that was a lie
Since the very start
I'm dark and demented
You tell me to smile
I'd might if someone cared
Every once in a while
No one can see that I'm
drowning in sorrow
Tears I choke back
And words I swallow
I'm bleeding on the inside
And crying on the out
Can't you at least try
To understand what I'm about?
To understand how I feel?
To understand why I cry?
To understand that
I wanna give up and die?
That's never gonna happen
Because nothing gets to you
You'll never try to care
So I guess I'm through

source; PoQ

:: wish cud be treated in better way, understand me and u will know how much i really care, love

and swear u cud choke to death knowing bout it ::

syaz is missing the childhood and wants to be away from this

after 2 weeks of...

A lil changes maybe fear

more observation could make me clear

the noise i used to hear

is a memory to make me cheer

:: SYAZ in PROGRESS ::